Unasked answers

I wish i could leave my body, transcend out of it and leave behind what i am not. Just becoming pure energy of what i am and creating my own vessel.
I feel guilt for who i am and for not accepting me in every way. I feel small.
Constantly changing like currents.
Sometimes I wish for not coming tears to bring me closer to my salvation. Washing off the dirt of unasked answers of early times.
Hoping for a good laugh and never ending love of myself.
Maybe it is not time yet